every breath you take..

Every breath you takeAnd every move you make

Every bond you break, every step you take

I'll be watching you

Every single day

And every word you say

Every game you play, every night you stay

I'll be watching you

Oh, can't you see

You belong to me?

How my poor heart aches

With every step you take

Every move you make

Every vow you break

Every smile you fake, every claim you stake

I'll be watching you

Since you've gone I've been lost without a trace

I dream at night, I can only see your face

I look around, but it's you I can't replace

I feel so cold, and I long for your embrace

I keep crying baby, baby please.

Oh, can't you see

You belong to me?

How my poor heart aches

With every step you take

Every move you make

Every vow you break

Every smile you fake, every claim you stake

I'll be watching you

Every move you make, every step you take

I'll be watching you

are you swaying with the music? :)

you know they will be there~~~

met with jas last week.. accompanied her to marina.. then met the rest.. chilled at coffee club.. we then decided to walk home.. but we only managed to walk till outram and we cabbed back to my place..

then we changed into pajamas.. and we photo taked again!
anyway.. tuesday classes are so boring with all the boring and lousy teachers! skipped e-commerce..that teacher is full of craps.. and nobody even understand his lesson! self declared holidays for tomorrow and friday! love it!

some of my friends say that i'm back to my normal self.. they say i become more quiet and less talkative when i am in a relationship.. seriously i can't really tell the difference.. some say i am still as chatty.. but whether i am chatty or quiet depends on my mood.. i can get grouchy in a early morning or when my bag is very heavy and hurting my shoulders or the weather is effing hot esp 3 in the afternoon!! i anti the sun alot!

there's this guy who adds me in msn

me:oie! who are you?

him:your fb friend..

then i went to see his fb.. and for some reason i deleted him from my msn..

him: if you mind.. i can delete you if you want

me: i mind eh!

him: you really do.. :(

me: actually i already deleted you.. but dun know why you can still talk to me..

him: =/ ow... ánd you claim yourself as nice ): lol k nvm bye.

for your info.. i did claim myself in fb as miss nice.. but.. that doesn't mean i have to be nice to everyone i dun know right? i will be nice if i feel that you totally deserve that kind of attention from me..

got to watch my vampire diaries now! xoxo!

changed my hair colour to dark brown but it looks more like black.. and it looks o-so-werid! hopefully after a few wash, the colour will fate.. :) my sis says she loves me more coz my hair is black and looks more like a good girl.. i shall see how long the "love me more" can last.. ;)
siew also changed her hair to black.. we transform from ah lians to good girls.. :) but she still looks like a ah lian after all.. LOL..
tomorrow gonna meet her..
buddy accompanied me the whole day today.. catched 2012.. awesome show! friday the 13 is indeed a very sway day for her.. is it sway for you guys? and the rain just can't STOP! love it when i am sleeping.. but hate it when i am out! gtg sleep now! night! happy weekends!
love all my friends.. you are my pillar of strength! xoxo!

无数个夜晚任性的被你宠坏

我曾想就这样耍赖

如今默默呼吸孤单

失去了什黱 还剩下什黱 不再等待

面对你慷慨无节制的爱我该不该勇敢的离开

对自己坦白爱狠狠的还在

找朋友陪伴都比不过另一半

泪在眼里打转爱已变成黑白

找不到答案也不想谎言主宰

对彼此坦白我们真的失败

背叛不是意外就算承诺不再

新欢成了旧爱爱的没了姿态

我会释怀让时间把一切都冲淡

失去了什黱 还剩下什黱 不再等待

面对你慷慨无节制的爱

我该不该勇敢的离开

对自己坦白爱狠狠的还在

找朋友陪伴都比不过另一半

泪在眼里打转爱已变成黑白

找不到答案也不想谎言主宰

对彼此坦白我们真的失败

背叛不是意外就算承诺不再

新欢成了旧爱爱的没了姿态

我会释怀让时间把一切都冲淡

就让它冲淡

love elva's new songs.. esp this one..! 坦白.. listen to it and you will love the meaning of the song! :)

on my way back just now.. there's this crazy guy asking if i have 50cents.. then i say no.. then he ask if i have $1.. i said no again.. then he say he give me $2.. then i said i dun want..then he still try to put the $2 in my bag.. i said no!
then when we were at the escalator, he was 4 steps in front of me.. then he started to move down one step.. so i didn't bother much..then he took another step back with a sly smile.. then i moved back as well..and he is still talking about his $2..! -.-
you think i want your 2 bucks? you asked money from me.. and now you wanna give it to me..! wtf!
then when we reach.. he waited for me!!! then he say again! i give you $2 to eat you dun want ah.. i say I DUN WANT.. then he attempt to put inside my fucking bag again! this time.. i shouted I DUN WANT!!!!!!!!!!!! then some KPOS looked at us.. then he walked away!
why am i so sway.. there's this stalker few months back who will peep through my house .. now another F TARD.. ma de!
when is my lady luck coming back to me...?
thank you for all the sayangs! much appreciated and love it lots! :) :) :)

back from my netball game.. good workout.. hopefully there are more sports activity coming up..;) both of my sisters and qihui were with their fake lashes.. was cursing their eye lashes to drop the whole time.. but surprisingly.. it's still intact when we reach home.. i shall do that the next time.. HAHA..
some pics to share.. ;D

outram netball players..we shall continue playing netball even when we reach 40 plus but in slow motion and with our lovely kids...alright? love my mates~~

our loser pose

we manage to have 15 players.. HAHA.. power right?

have to close my eyes or look somewhere most of the time.. coz i look restless..

lydia's expression is hilarous as usual..she always have werid expression when it comes to photo taking..

last pic before we end our day.. ;)

went malaysia last sunday and reach home at 5.30 in the morning.. slept for merely an hour and off to school.. swear i will never do that again coz it's damn tiring.. i was like a greenhorn when we reach malaysia.. asking random questions and stuff..

went to sing k.. and it's cheap lah.. each around 33 rgn..the room is big and got 2 complimentary drinks..

xoxo, hy

sometimes should you keep trying or just stop?

i can forgive but not forget all the times..

down with high fever and yet i still play mj..i was even asked to club and i even agreed even though i am feeling giddy.. but it's was cancel lah.. told my sis that i am feeling giddy few days back.. and she gave me the whatever look coz she says that i like to say i am sick when i am not.. i do like to fake about myself being sick when i was much younger lah.. but now.. -.-
feel like an old lady now coz my back hurts like a bitch..
hopefully i can get well soon.. got to see the doc tomorrow.. :(
probably it's just a moment of impulse~~~


got to rest now.. night..!

went for a run and just got back... I FEEL SLIM! HAHA... though i run for 25minutes and walked for 1 hour plus.. but still.. i'm sure i did lose some weight! :) :)
going for a run on saturday night... hopefully i can make it a practice to exercise weekly.. :) :)
anyway.. friday is going to be so busy.. needs to buy stuff for my sister's birthday celebration.. marinate the chicken and stuff... coz we are having a bbq... :) :)
heading to the club tomorrow.. can't wait to party with my bffs.. :D :D :D

with love, hy :')
sometimes it's good to just talk behind the screens and remain things as it is... sorry.. i chickened out again...

finally back from bangkok, miss singapore quite alot! the ppl in bangkok likes to scam ppl's money.. and the place is not as clean as singapore.. safety wise.. singapore is still the best.. ;)
never really buy lotsa stuff there coz i didn't bring enough cash! what a waste man! promise to go back again with loads of cash..
went to take my weight during my bk trip.. it totally shocked me.. i thought i will never exceed 50kg.. so i took it again using another weighing machine.. and i am 50+? FML!
i'm so gonna go on diet starting from tomorrow.. i'm gonna go for a morning run tomorrow.. anyone?
i need to colour my hair before school reopens..wanna it to be brown.. and not ash and all those orange brown or whatever shit.. i always wanna a brown... purely brown.. but the hairdresser always recommend ash brown and all those orange brown? argh~! i am so gonna go for brown this time and nothing else! ;)
got to unpack my stuff now! hate it to the max! BYE!

today marks the last day of my itp.. got my full pay and a juicy couture wallet from my boss.. not really the type of wallets i will bring though.. but it's still nice to receive gifts from colleagues.. ;)
going to bbk for a 5d4n trip... hopefully i'll be back in one piece and able to buy lotsa stuff and gifts for myself and friends.. :) will be back on the same day as man yi.. 28th!
got to finish packing my stuffs coz it's only half done...
happy holidays ppl~~~~~ :) :) :)
bye!

going zouk for ladies night... dun really miss zouk when i start going to power house.. went butter last week.. as usual.. hot yet fun.... michy and i decided to wait for them outside at around 2 plus.. as there's seriously no space for us to dance...
anyway.. hopefully today i will have fun at zouk.. and i miss club hopping and the free alcohols.. here i come.. WAHAHAHA...
3 more days to end of itp... have to go back on tuesday.. to see if the intern needs more help.. and then take my pay.. and ciao for bbk.. :) :) :)
xoxo.. hy..

love jerry yan and this song.... love the lyrics.. and how can you not fall for this sweet guy with his billion dollar smile.. right.. ;)

i feel so bad for not puting in effort while others did..FML! what a friend! so upset with myself!
BTW..it can be so fun.. staying at home.. playing clubbing songs.. dancing all by yourself and dun have to care what others might think about your dance moves! cool and enjoy it like any nights in clubs.. :)
and today will be jogging with jian zhong and manyi to henderson wave.. hopefully i dun feel exhuasted half way...and decided to stop and walk home instead.. HAHA...

na na na na na na na na, hey hey hey, goodbye~~~~~~~~

i dun see the need to raise your voice at me..!! >;|
heading to the club later in the night... gonna be a great night definitely...:) meeting man for some shopping...
and my head is killing me.. argh!
gonna prepare now! have a happy weekends my friends! love.. xoxo

why do i always dun get what i want... whenever i want it.. it's not here.. when i decided to let go.. it comes back..
i hate it when i can't catch it when it's here.. only to find it when it's gone..
life's sucha crap at times..

this morning.. my sister just told me that my laptop is spoilt.. FML! -.-
if it was spoilt last week.. i will not even go bbk and save the money to buy a new com instead.. but now everything is set.. bbk trip is confirm.. i can't even say i dun wanna go... coz i didn't want to be a spoil sport... argh! anyway.. sending the com for repair..
without my laptop my following nights will be so BORING!! no MSN.. FB.. youtube.. TMD!!
and i just realise i have been saying the word fucker that my dad somehow reprimands me.. i think i should stop saying all the vulgurites in front of him... if not.. my dad will give me a slap someday...
on a lighter note.. my intern is coming tomorrow.. HOHOHO... when i talk to her on the phone.. she's so soft spoken.. and i sound so.. -.- i think i must really learn to talk softer...
anyway.. sat will be clubbing at st james.. anyway wanna come along.. beep me.. ;D
xoxo.. hy

lets stick close....

watched the last house on the left yesterday.. dun really like and enjoy the show...hate the raping scenes!!! i think i prefer action/ romance/ comedy to triller! just dun watch it ppl! went to take neos as well....

somehow i feel that we are closer.. much closer than the previous years we hang out together... i think we have make it a habit to meet weekly now whether is it for clubbing or movies... lets stick close like inseparable friends? cheers to our 6 years of friendship!

i've been feeling nervous recently for no reason.. heart beating at a irregular rate? weird...
anyway finally done with projects and logs.. feel so free suddenly.. but my boss still gives me extra work.. which sucks like shit.. excel sucks totally.. or rather i suck with excel.. i still remember myself crying during excel lessons when i can't catch up.. F and stupid...!
can't wait for ITP to end.. and my boss asked me to ask the next intern to come end of this month.. which sounds great for me.. but bad for her.. prolly i will try to ask her to come begining of sept? so that it can give me more time to remove the virus from my com! the virus in the com is lacking everything i open.. and the format changed totally as well.. so i better solve it before the next intern comes.. :)
life's such a bore after last friday.. been going home after work and idling around in the weekends... hopefully i have more dates coming up.. i used to be a homebody.. but now.. i dun wish to go home early... -.-
i so wanna enlage my social circle, have tons and tons of friends and please introduce me some butch-es.. i wanna have butch as my best friend.. but i just dun have the luck.. someone please intro? HA
got to do my work now! sayonara~~~~
xoxo hy
never go back to a guy who cheats on you..

kenny's B P

overnight at sentosa to celebrate kenny's birthday... so much fun! played lotsa games and it's really funny whenever we need to do a dare! glad that everyone is sporty enough and completed their dare without much hesitation... jun mun, shang zhi and kenny got themselves drunk and jun mun was freaking hilarious... travis disappear/ walk away the whole time at first... MIA! but joined us after he feel better.. anyway.. i believe everyone had fun! and i feel so blessed and grateful to have you guys as my best friends!!! some of my friends come and go.. but i believe we will last a life time!!! :) :) :) will post pic when blogger is working...love love love!!!!!
xoxo, hy

my colleague and i have nothing better to do... calculating how much my boss earn,resale, nb, blah blah blah.. in conclusion, my boss is rich... ONCE!! HAHA

i always say i need to be strong.. but when something happen.. i start to cry again! i really need to stop crying over small issues...that's so stupid and so NOT ME! >:\

wasted my sunday just like that... sign.. went powerhouse yesterday with the usuals and the guys.. drank hard liquor and got myself drunk? thankyou my dear friends again.. *hugs* and the guys as always being so high, funny and protective.. you guys are love by me as well.... <3 :) :) :)
clubbed till 3 plus.. went for breakfast and got home.. felt bad as i was talking to xe quite rudely.. haha.. i know you won't mind right? but you just had that pair of lazy legs that i totally hate.. ;)expect me to take clothes and stuff for you coz you are sweaty and sticky.. but i am too!!!
woke up at 4 which i thought was 12 at first.. feel that i wasted my sunday just like that... hates!
nothing much.. just wanna thank my darlings again... THANK YOU!!!
LOVE YOU GUYS LOTS~~
and i painted my nails red... i love it.. wanna me medi and pedi soon... bought brown contacts.. the da yan jin the xiao mi mi.. ;) so nice and natural i feel.. love it too...

XOXO HY

yesterday went prata house for dinner.. their plain prata= yummy! my sec school serve rubber prata.. it sucks like shit! i didn't drink kopi teh takri (dun know the correct spelling) coz i was down with cough and sore throat.. argh.. how can i go prata house and dun drink teh takri... it's just so wrong... *totally hate it* i dun mind having headache or fever... but no cough please!
anyway can't wait for next week to come.. coz i'll be going to a bar and support xueer's friend as he is performing? haha.. i know it's none of my business coz it's not my friend.. but.. it's good to know more friends...right? :)
then i'll be going to joan's place to stayover.. doing online shopping...mj.. supper etc. i know there's gonna be lotsa fun definitely.. wohooo...
hopefully, i will also meet my bffs too... coz i've not seen them for weeks..*misses*
TODAY.. i'll be meeting man yi and rae for movie and dinner.. can't wait....!!!!
anyway.. to that guy who reads my blog.. i dislike you and i dun even want to TRY to know you... also i'll not put myself in your shoes.. and i know karma is already bitting your ass... more will come.. just wait and see....
projects+logs=faint!!!
i edited this post for the 3rd time... HAHA1
i'll post some pics when i am free... heh heh!
xoxo, hy

i lost my pride.. asked help from a guy i hated totally.. just because he is loaded... damn! never will i do that again.. i promise...
work is so boring.. gosh..!

work is so boring...

bored at work.. though there is work for me.. but i've been doing the same thing for the past 4-5 mths? sian to the max X2
every mth, every week and everyday doing the same old things... f!
WHEN IS THE NEXT INTERN COMING?!!! i'll make sure you come on the 1 of sep.. instead of the 14th or later... and i'm gonna throw all the work to you and sit beside you and qiao leg..
HAHA...
bye... :D

bits and pieces

my sis says that she will watch a movie with me but now she's sleeping... argh!!! i just dun feel like sleeping so early especially on saturaday.. so no lifffffffffffeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee....
anyway.. yesterday xe stayed over at my place..it's always so fun talking to her.. we always snatch for space, blanket, pillow etc. and coz my bed is abit shaky.. so we say that we are on a boat.. and we say not to push either of us down the bed.. if not the shark will come and bite our ass.. we are damn lame.. then we chatted.. and i found out she got really really weird/bad taste... HAHA.. i think we slept at around 5 plus and she woke me up around 10.30 and say she wanna go eat breakfast.. tsk tsk tsk..
i just dun understand why someone can lie and thinks that no one will know when his ****** ******* mouth is so big... hate him and i will continue swearing whenever i see you.. i promise... never will you be able to change the way i feel about you unless i never see your face again... again!! karma will bite your big fat ass,boy...

Bored and Irritated.. why must she keep explaining herself and repeatingwhen it's already in the head...>:\
sometimes it's good to just walk way.. and IGNORE!

fat :(

i thought i was all along not too fat nor too skiny.. but after i went for attachment.. i grew fatter.. damn!! my hip from 32/33 to 35/36.. fucked.. all the after eating then go sit down routine for the past 4 months makes my hip area incrase?! i dun want!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i was thinking of gaining weight 2 months ago for some reasons.. but the area i wanna it to grow big doesn't instead my arms and hip?!
yesterday qi hui asked me ni zhui jin hao chi hao zhu hor? i was like ya!! but actually there is another meaning to it.. it means i grow FATTER!!! omg.. totally hate it.. yesterday when we were having dinner my sis only ate 1/4 of her rice.. but i ate like 3/4 of it with FRIED chicken and i am not even full yet.. i actually wanna finish the whole plate of rice.. but after seeing how much she eats i stopped coz i feel like i really eat alot.. i eat junk food after work when i reach home.. follow by dinner.. then biscuits after that at times? i eat whenever i feel stress or angry.. during lunchtime, when my colleague and i eat out.. i eat malay rice all the time followed by a peanut pancake.. i felt guilty only after eating the whole pancake.. but i just can't resist temptations.. hopefully the pancake stall close down tomorrow follow by the malay stall.. HAHA...
joan also say so.. she was like you arms... coz last time i never see this now i see it.. can't remember what she really say.. but the meaing is I GREW FATTER... when i see the mirror i saw abit of double chin.. FUCK.. I"M GONNA LOST MY CHIN SOON!! but i just pretend i saw nothing and walk off or i just press my fats inwards and inside thinking.. if i dun have this layer of fats that layer of fats in front of the mirror for a fw minutes then walk off.. haha..
sat and sun are like my favourite days.. coz it's junk food day.. i watch tv, sleep and eat all the rubbish things.. sometimes i even wish i have a bigger stomach.. so i can eat more.. coz no matter how muuch junk food i eat.. it's never enough for me..
and now.. i dun even know if i should continue eating and enjoy life without restictions or eat less? but can i resist all the temptations?

loves

sorry for the lack of updates.. busy completing logs and with work.. hopefully things will get better coz i had been quite unlucky begining of june.. late for work for 1 hour, work given was not done properly, was badly graded for my assignment which leads me crying non stop.. come to think about it, i just find myself very weak and always crying over trival silly matters.. when i talk about it i start crying.. looking at my boss i cried again.. makes me look so stupid and embarassing.. i totally hate it when i cry over things that can be solve.. because i find that if things can be solve whether easy or hard i dun see a need to cry.. coz crying does not solve the problems at all... you will just let the negative side take over you.. anyway my boss talked to me when he saw me crying non stop.. all i say was sorry.. sorry and sorry.. i felt really bad coz he was shocked and surprise.. coz NOBODY cry over marks.. he say that the past girls never cry because of thier grades.. and i dun wanna make things werid.. hopefully he won't give me a better grade for the next assignment because i cried and he don't want me to cry again.. coz i hate ppl pity me..

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anyway.. met up with qihui yesterday for movie.... watched blood, the last vampire.. awsome show... but the ending was abit "wadever".. actually planned to have steamboat and drinking with her boyfriend and friends.. but changed plan to MAHJONG... wooohooo.. so met my sis after her work.. then when to have desert and went over to my place for mj..

pictures!

cam-whore after we reach home.. haha



individual pic with our MJ...

then we remove our make up and take pics again.. but most of it was unpresentable.. too ugly.. haha...

ok.. that's all.. till next time... :)

never be too soft-hearted coz in the end only you, yourself will get hurt....

xoxo, xuanen

DRINK AND GET HIIIGGGHHHHH!
went j bar on tuesday.. nice bar with good ambience :D.. the drinks before 8.30 is one for one.. so it's definitely worth.. so we ordered 2 bottles of absolute.. and start playing games..

the losers!!! actually everyone lose except a few or only lian an?
cherlynn drink like 4 or 5 shots i think.. she's sooooo prrrrroooooooooo!

everyone was such a good drinker lah.. when we drink shots i'm the onlyt one who needs lemon.. the rest are all gao shou! and i'm the only having the very nan shou look lah..

audrey's body was all red.. and she vomited in the toilet.. O.O

i think i am trying to take all the mixer from jian zhong lah..and he gave me this look.. he's a BABY! ha

he still needs his mixer after his shot! bbbaaaabbbbbyyyyyy!

look whose talking here... the BBBAAABBYYYYY...

this babe here can't stop dancing.. even if she's the only one dancing.. she still dance.. and try to ask everyone to dance with her.. ha..

group pic before heading home.. jian zhong the baby send me home.. thanks ah.. ha...and the next day he say i owe him a favour.. what a man!
xoxo, hy